Day 245 = Walking + Vienna

Third day off from work, and I was compelled to get out of the house. Normally I hate being sick, but my mentality about work has really been rejuventated, and I plan on going back with new ideas to meet my goals. So having strep throat also served as just taking personal days. I'm still on my Z-pack and not 100%, but at least not contagious. So I'll venture out to my friend Katherine's baby shower tonight. It's a co-ed thing, like a cocktail party, and Katherine is so cute. She's so tiny but all belly. There's a little girl in that belly, and we all can't wait to meet her.

My 15-mile run is looming tomorrow. I'd planned to really focus on my runs and workouts this week, but being knocked on my ass with strep throat prevented that. I'm very curious about how I'll perform tomorrow. I might just run 11 miles. I'm sure I have that in me. On my walk this afternoon, I felt my mojo coming back. Things are starting to turn around, and my positive outlook is starting to poke out again. As evidenced from recent blog entries, I sink into a negative world when I'm sick, and I'm totally aware of this. I hate being in that place. See that is why I hate feeling sick and helpless and negative.

But a song came through on my iPod that I forgot I had in my playlist today. It was "Vienna" by Billy Joel. I've never really listened to the words, but they had profound meaning to me today. Because I do have lots of ambition and feel trapped in the world I've created to accomplish my goals. It's a paradox. But the song basically says "chill out. you got this."

Vienna waits for you is a metaphor for life. Life is just life. Slow down. I may be ambitious, but that ambitioun won't make things go my way. I have to let go and let God.

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"Vienna" - By Billy Joel

Slow down you crazy child
You're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart tell me why
Are you still so afraid?

Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You better cool it off before you burn it out
You got so much to do and only
So many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you

Slow down you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight (tonight)

Too bad but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself
That you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong
You know you can't always see when you're right (you're right)

You got your passion you got your pride
But don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize
Vienna waits for you

Slow down you crazy child
Take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while
It's alright you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you.

And you know that when the truth is told
That you can get what you want
Or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through

Why don't you realize...Vienna waits for you
When will you realize...Vienna waits for you