Day 89 = Gym + Meetings

Could I be in more meetings today? This is typical, actually. Meetings. Working sessions. Phone calls. Budget meetings. Planning meetings. Meetings to get on the same page with one group of people before taking another meeting with another group of people. Weekly vendor status meetings with at least 5 vendors plus partner and internal "core team" and staff meetings. Then I have to block time out just to do my busy work so no one will schedule anything over my so-called free time. Then there are those days when I spend the better part of a day just trying to schedule a meeting with people in three different time zones. I try to remember, "Did I stop to pee today?"

Even though I had a personal training session this morning, which counts as my 89th workout, I can't help but yearn for getting out and taking a walk to decompress. I was also invited to check out some live music and drink beer with friends tonight. But I'd rather go for a walk than drink empty calories. Who have I become!? (not so fast; this wine drinker is still here...) While I am not on a fast track to try to fit into my little size 4 prom dress again (unless I want to go as a zebra for Halloween this year), drinking beer isn't going to get me any closer to it.

I had a paradoxical epiphany the other day: I'm at my best when I have things planned out, when I have a goal in sight and feel like I'm accomplishing it, yet I'm at my worst when I can't be flexible. I don't like to be pressured; I get plenty of that at work, which I thrive on. So how can I love planning but also want to spit venom on it, too? I have to learn what I can and cannot control with planning and let go of what I can't. Now, who has those instructions? Maybe I should ask the Memphis Waffle Guy what his take is on that....

That said, while I appreciate my friend's invite (thank you, Amy!), every minute of my day has been scheduled since 5:30 this morning, and I kind of need a break from that. After all, I have a big day tomorrow. It's Day 90.